I have been busy with life. It’s a good thing, keeps me away from all the fucktard memories of my naiveness.
Anyways, university application is coming to an end, and so far I have been receiving bad news. Never been so unconfident with my future before. Got my latest news today, and it wasn’t pretty either. All of a sudden, that immense feeling of fear struck me. It had me thinking: What if at the end of the day, I fail. It would be such a disgrace for me to my friends and family, to everyone who has look up to me, to everyone who’s watching the show. Most importantly, what am I gonna do about it? This failure would lead to a lost in my life, I would have no idea what to do. And I’m scared.
“the whole point of life is that, you’re gonna learn by keep messing up.”
“Some people care too much. I think it’s called love.”A.A. Milne (Winnie-the-Pooh)
“Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with you.”—Christopher Robin to Pooh
Date a man who loves god!
Date a man who doesn’t spend his money on drink, or clothes, or video games, but saves what he has to go on adventures & pursue his dreams. He might
Date a man who hasn’t got the money to spoil you or shower you with gifts but finds a way to do it anyway. You can trust that he’ll find a way to touch your heart & make you feel special in new ways. He knows that words and gifts aren’t what matters. Every time you give him something or write to him he will truly treasure it & understand the effort you put in to choosing the gift, the words, or even making it yourself.
Date a man who sees how amazing you are even if you don’t see it yourself, who sees how good things could be for you. Because a man like this who can see the end goal, the big picture, will keep on going because no obstacle can compare to what lies ahead. Date a man who believes in true love, in romance. He will dream up incredible fantasies that the two of you can bring to life together. He will take you places other people can’t even imagine. Date a man who believes in you, because he will help you believe as well. He will see echoes of you in every thing of beauty, & he sees beauty in everything. A man like this will always think you’re the most beautiful girl in the world and will always be there for you.
Date a man who reads books, who watches films & cartoons, who laughs at stupid jokes & knows when to fall into a reverential silence & drink in the moment with you. You can just be yourself with him & he’ll just be himself. He’ll understand why you love the things you do & he’ll appreciate them & be interested in them too, even his own passions lie elsewhere. He understands your whims & desires, because he’s seen them acted out in his mind. & whatever the scenario, no matter how bad things get, he sees how the story ends. And because he sees how it ends, he knows that all tragedies are overcome, all villains vanquished & fears are banished, no matter how desperate the situation may appear.
Date a man who knows what it takes to stand out from the crowd & who doesn’t mind being judged or thought of as different. That’s why he will never judge you or make lazy assumptions about you. That’s why he will always see you as your own person, as a unique & wonderful individual.
Fail him. Let him down. Hurt him. He’ll do the same to you: but he knows that this is just how things go. He knows that life is made up of ups & downs. He will understand that when you lash out at him or push him away, there are many reasons why. Instead of getting mad or retaliating he’ll try & make things right. He knows when to apologise and admit to making mistakes. He’s also quick to forgive because he knows how easy it is to make mistakes. He understands that your flaws and vulnerabilities make you beautiful & strong.
He knows that perfect harmony doesn’t exist & that nothing is forever. He knows that you see this too: he sees beauty & freedom in this & wants to help you see it too. He knows fear & embraces it. He knows sadness. He knows his many flaws. He is prepared to adapt & to change because he respects your values & your opinions. He knows that nobody is perfect but that doesn’t stop him trying to do his best. He knows that love needs to be worked for, that relationships are a constant flow from love & laughter to arguments & conflict, that like all things the good times come with the bad & that the dancing & loving & laughing are worth the fighting. He wants you to be happy even if it means not being with you, but in his heart he believes that he can make you happy like nobody else & so will do anything to be with you.
Date a man who remembers every little thing about you, who is intuitive, who can see when you’re happy or sad, when you need cheering up or when you want to get away from it all or just forget everything for a while. He sees everything about you. He understands that you’ll be a different person from moment to moment, that you’ll change your mind and your mood without warning. He knows that you can switch between being a baller shot caller, a kawaii otaku, an artistic auteur or a femme fatale in the blink of an eye, an that they are all a part of who you are. He loves & pays attention to each & every aspect of your personality, from the girl who needs to be cuddled & cared for to the woman with her own needs & desires.
Date a man who fights to be in your life no matter what. A man who values you & believes he should be with you will only see that you are scared of how much this could mean for both of you. This kind of guy who will always be there for you when the times are tough, who is always looking out for you even when you’re not together or when you cannot see him. Date a man who will always believe you should be together: a man who will never give up on you no matter what. Date a man you’re scared to date, precisely because you cannot think of a reason you should be scared to be with him.
Date a man who dreams. Who dreams about you.
Or better yet, date a man who lives his dreams. - Dom Tsui
Sun set today. It’s so pretty.. Not splendid, but it’s pretty enough for now. Appreciate what u have, human should always be grateful towards what they’re being blessed with. (Taken with instagram)
Smile. It’s the 1st step to fix everything. (Taken with instagram)
It’s like I’m living in a painting. (Taken with instagram)
A pic of myself just to let u guys know that im still surviving despite having to spend cny in cold winter days, and once again I emphasize, 14000km away from home. (Taken with instagram)
Missing her sooo much. (Taken with instagram)
I think i’m starting to fear it.
This is bad, really bad. I’ve never been in loved, and now I’m actually being intimidated by it.